Originally published on Medium March 25, 2016
In the words of Rihanna “werk werk werk werk werk”
A few thoughts from the past two years of my life for a little context:
- Wow I hate college.
- This photo video thing is cool. I like it a lawt.
- *werk werk travel werk werk werk werk*
- I am 21 years old. Why am I already living life for my Plan B?
- *drops out of college to pursue hopes, dreams & aspirations*
One month ago, stress and anxiety dominated every aspect of my life. Sleeping was not a thing. I was working on freelance corporate videos, maintaining a weekly upload to my YouTube channel, posting every day to my blog, chasing after a very ambitious opportunity and worrying about making ends meet. I have never been more confident about a decision in my life than when I dropped out of college but fear of the future occasionally creeped into my mind.
For one year I had been pouring into my YouTube channel with consistent uploads and projects like Creative Spaces TV, that were rewarding once finished, but I felt were worth so much more than 1,500 views. Generally speaking, I am a very positive person with the constant drive to take over the world but I found myself in a place of self doubt and lack of motivation. My videos were getting an average of 500 - 1000 views and I had one of those “DOES MY ART EVEN MATTER!??!?!” moments (#relatable). The sleep deprivation did not help my mini breakdown moment. I knew the steps I needed to take to get closer to my goal but it was difficult to find the energy to take those steps.
Moments like these are when structure is key. Deadlines produce an obligation to create. I was having a diva moment, and the last thing I wanted to do was sit in front of a camera and talk to the world wide web, but I did it because it is what I have been making myself do for the past year. So internet fam — what do you do when you don’t want to put in the work? You put in the work. It always pays off. Your next piece of art can be the big break through — THE ONE CREATION THAT CHANGES EVERYTHING.
This was the video I almost did not make because I didn’t feel like it.
I made this video during the pursuit of another opportunity that has now come full circle as well. I can tell you now that I’m on the other side of things, I am 101398473084% thrilled that I put in the work when I did not want to (I’ll share more about this other thing later).
My “How to Casey Neistat” video went a tad viral after catching the attention of the insanely talented Casey Neistat himself and grew my channel from 3,400 YouTube subscribers to now over 100,000 subscribers in the span of a few weeks. Of course serendipity plays a role in things like this but you have to put in the work to even create this kind of possibility. PUT IN THE WORK. PUT IN THE WORK. PUT IN THE WORK. If you only take one thing away from this — PUT IN THE WORK.
The harder you work, the luckier you get. — Gary Player
I was so close to not making this video, but holy smokes internet friends, I am so glad I did. I now have an amazing platform to share my films, thoughts and ideas and I can share all of the things I have learned and experienced thus far with 100,000 of my closest friends. This is a tumblr blog post that I wrote and saved to my drafts the night before the internet boost from Casey.
(these are partial thoughts strung together at 4AM so forgive the terrible grammar & sentence structure)
“on the edge of something really epic”
Life has been pretty epic thus far and it’s only getting EPICER (I know that’s not a word but I’m making it a word). I am stupid stoked for the future and to bring all of my internet friends with me. I want to help in any way I can through sharing my journey and putting out content that inspires yals freaking faces off.
When in doubt, keep creating. Chase inspiration, but create structure that holds you responsible to your art. Pursuing your dream is not about waiting around for that one perfect moment. Pursuing your dream is about you manufacturing the circumstances for your art to thrive.
❤ SARA DIETSCHY, rhymes with peachy